5th June 2015. “Aftermath”** of my Via 2015.
I have had the privilege of living the “extraordinary” ordinary – the simple act of walking – over the last month for roughly 450km, accompanied and supported all along by you, my family and friends. I am grateful for having had the health and energy to do this. However, I now accept that I can’t complete my Via at this time and while I am somewhat disappointed (how I would have loved to take you all to Rome!), this acceptance is also part of the way of the Via… I often thought of what Sigeric and other such pilgrims might have experienced and this has guided me in my attitude towards what I was living through and enabled me to put things into perspective. I’ve also wondered about the meaning of a “pilgrimage” in today’s world. Mine was primarily a long walk which was always more about the “travelling” than the destination …but perhaps it will take some time to know what it has brought me and for its “lessons” to be assimilated…but I have a sense of happiness in having walked the Via thus far.
Although it was mostly a sheer pleasure, walking was not always easy, sometimes it was very challenging in difficult conditions, through some unattractive places, with a few moments of discouragement, but these were more than overcome by unexpected joys, encounters, and beauty that lightened my load and lifted my spirits. My main fear was in having an accident and injuring myself in a lonely place but this fortunately didn’t eventuate… Perhaps someone was watching over me…(and at times there had been the following Romanians and Italians…not to mention, among others, my ex-Belgian Army Reserve captain and mtimw!).
As in real life, no day is like another and one adjusts to what comes one’s way. I never suffered from “solitude” and have never had the occasion to read anything other than my guide-book or sometimes look up facts on the Internet when wifi was available (during the 5 hour wait at the airport in Florence I finally took out a stash of FT cryptic crosswords which I had brought from home). I have been completely cut off from what has been happening in the world at large and am a bit apprehensive at being part of it again.
I have met some wonderful people and seen and experienced many wondrous and beautiful sights, events and places, the warmth of unexpected and fortuitous encounters, marks of friendship, adventures, laughter and joys, incredible acts of kindness, the warmth of hostel receptions, the constant gratitude for the dedication of the people who mark the waysigns which so often comforted me, all of which have contributed to the personal satisfaction of my venture, have enriched me, and given me enough memories for a lifetime… I think I have even made a few new friends, which have perhaps come into my life “for a reason, for a season or for a lifetime”.
I don’t expect that I am a changed person, just someone who has perhaps learnt to know herself a little better, to accept her limits, to have a greater respect for people who live out their daily existence with courage, fortitude and good humour, to marvel at the beauties of nature, and to appreciate the wonder of the “present moment” – which it was a privilege to experience… And especially for me with my personality, learning to take one step at a time, day by day…and to look where I was putting my feet! And I now have the gift of the slower-moving time of summer to try and digest what I have experienced and lived through.
I think that in a previous life I must have been born Italian. I love the Italian people, even though I tease them at times, their wonderful zest for life, their kindness and goodness, tolerance and consideration towards others (except their political class and rightly so!), their willingness to volunteer to provide service and to enable other services to function, the warmth which prevails in places such as bars, their appreciation of beauty even in the smallest of things and in their ways of doing things. And I love their beautiful country which I have discovered more fully walking on “other” paths…the Apennines, Lunigiana, the marble country… I accept that bars have a “closing day” and that wifi (like a cappuch) is not always available (for modern-day pilgrims…). I think that Italy, which is going through a terrible economic crisis which makes life difficult for so many, only functions because of the spirit of its people. I salute them!
Sitting on my terrace the world comes to me – the constant bird songs, the cries of the children in the primary school next door, the beauty of my terrace garden, and the bells of the church along the road ringing out the passage of time. So, yes, it is good to be home in spite of the deception I first felt in accepting that I wouldn’t make it to Rome this time around. However I am hopeful that my medical treatment will be successful and my trusty feet have already received some well-merited TLC from the podiatrist in my village.
My unfinished-as-yet walk is principally dedicated to Catherine, my friend, physio and Nordic-walking teacher who enabled me to be as active as I’ve been both before and after my knee replacement, and who, knowing me well, gave me the wisest advice which has accompanied me every single day and for which I thank her (il y avait des jours quand j’ai du utiliser plus de bonbons, et des jours pas de tout, chere Catherine, mais ils m’en restent toujours…). And it is also dedicated to those of my family and friends who can’t for many reasons contemplate such an undertaking – I have been walking for you and hope I have enabled you to “live” the path we have walked together. So it’s an”arrivederci” until we walk together again.
**. Aftermath is, a friend tells me, what the second harvest of hay is called and is I think, with a step back for reflection, an appropriate title for this final text.